I'm sorry...I know it's a lot of posts for one day.  But I'm really bored, and you can just think of it as I'm making up for the days I DIDN'T post. :)

Seven things in your room:
1. tv
2. boxes
3. computer
4. men working sign
5. wall of mirrors ;)
6. pocahontas pillow
7. lamp with red lightbulb...i'm back to the red light district :)

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. eyes
2. big lips--but not TOO big
3. smile
4. sense of humor--includes dirty jokes, of course
5. of course there's that whole good personality thing. hehe
6. sense of comfort with him
7. dark hair

Top seven things you say most (in no particular order):
1. geez
2. gah!
3. omg...did you hear?!
4. your face!
5. shut up!
6. you whore!
7. psh

Have you/Do you:
Smoke? no
Do drugs? not in a long time
Read the newspaper? yuh
Pray? yup
Been in love? nope
Gone skinny-dipping? yeah
Had surgery? not so much surgery...stitches and such is all
Swam in the dark: haha...yeah ;)
Been to a Bonfire: yeah
Got Drunk: yeah
Ran away from home? no
Played strip poker? no
Gotten beaten up?: no
Beaten someone up? no
Been on stage?: yeah...i love it 
Slept outdoors? yeah, but its been forever
Pulled an all nighter? yes!  i heart!
If yes, what is your record? uh...like 48-ish hours
Made out with a stranger? not COMPLETE stranger...
Been on radio/TV? yeah
Been in a mosh-pit? nah
Been to a party: haha yuh
Gotten lost in the woods: no...i dont go in the woods much bc its scary... 
Been in an Undertow: yeah

About You
Three words that sum you up: loud, hyper, openminded (believe it or not)
Wallet: small one
Coffee: i love coffee...so much
Shoes: i love shoes more than coffee...and i'm buying more tomorrow!
cologne/perfume: pink by victoria's secret
Clothing you have on: jeans and my techstock shirt

In the last 24 Hours have you...
Cried: i got teary..didn't cry
Bought something: yes my beautiful new bag!!!!  oh i love!  spending money is my drug
Gotten sick: nope
Sang:well yuh..all the time, man
Eaten: yeah
Been kissed: not in the last 24 hours 
Felt stupid: all the time..hehe
Wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't: no
Talked to an ex: umm...yeah
Had a serious talk: yep
Missed someone: all the time
Hugged someone: yeah, i hug all the time
Argued with a parent(s): nope...been a while since i fought with them.

Social Life:
Boyfriend/girlfriend: nope
Car you drive: hyundai accent
Job: stop n store..office chick...we all know
Attend church: not anymore

Currents:
Current Mood: bored
Current Taste: well....the tiniest bit of cinammon flavor left in my gum
Current Hair: down
Current Annoyance: work...being bored
Current DVD In Player: mean girls:)
Current Refreshment: nada...i want propel
Current Worry: dont have one right now


Miscellaneous:
Are you artistic: not so much 
Are you athletic: nah
Are you a brat: yeah...i'd say so
Do you like spiders: hate
Can you do anything freakish with your body? no
What are you listening to: joydrop
Makeup or natural look? depends on my mood...mostly makeup, but my makeup is natural looking...so yeah

last night was the best night i've had in such a long time.

they close on my old  house today...monica and i wanted one last memory so we went there last night, made a pallet on the floor in my old room, hooked up a tv and dvd player, watched mean girls, ate our signature junk foods (cake, chips, beef jerky) and drank our signature drink (propel of course.)  we took two cameras worth of pictures, read dirty things in cosmo in our sexiest voices and laughed our butts off.  we layed on the patio outside and sang the "i dont want to wait for our lives to be over" song :) we stayed until about 3, went back to my condo and went to bed.

it was sad...being in that house for what i knew would be the last time ever.  so much fun though.  we've made lots of memories there.  that was the perfect ending to such a great part of our lives.

when we were back at the condo and we were going to sleep i kept thinking "this is what it's going to be like in a year."  us living together, making brand new memories, eating the same junk food and drinking the same flavored water, taking the same silly pictures in a different setting, and reading sex tips in cosmo and laughing at them...but logging them away at the same time :)  it's gonna be great.  life's gonna be great.

tonight--mom and dad are coming home...they haven't stayed a night at the condo in over a week.  they're coming home to be with me tonight.  we're ordering in and working on the house.  i'm surprisingly excited about it.  even though we're going to be WORKING...i'm really happy to spend some time with my parents.

at 9 i'm going over to caitlini's for an english project thing.  with lots of people that i normally dont hang out with.  it'll be fun though. i'm making queso :) and we're ordering gumby's...i guess i'm eating dinner twice tonight.  hehe

ohhh....<33333 to the world

*I absolutely love when Marilyn Manson covers 80's songs.  He's the shit.

*I miss my internet.  My modem is still messed up and I don't know why.  Preston is supposed to come fix it soon...hopefully tomorrow.  That would be sexcellent!

*Mom and Dad are going to stay in Montgomery again tonight.  They've been gone five days.  I like this :)

*Justin and Shaini are coming into town tonight to get Justin's crap from the old house.  I don't think they're spending the night, but I'm still excited because I get to see my brother!

*I'm going to go see him in San Marcos some weekend in October.  We decided. :)

*My relationship with Luke is getting better.  We're getting along much better and he actually calls to talk to me on occasion.  It's weird, but I'm liking it.

*Thank God this is a four day week.  I really need the long weekend.  Even though I'm working 9-3 Friday...oh well, I'm getting paid for it, and it's better than being at school.

*The Homecoming game is going to be awesome.  I decided!  Scottie will get queen and I will say "I told you so!" because that's what I do. :)

*I realized this weekend that I push a lot of people away because of my fear of getting hurt...sorry if I do that to you.  I also realized that I talk about people WAY too much.  I need to work on that.

Ok, that's all.  <333

Last night was so much fun...and so needed!

The girls came over...of course everyone but Courtney was late...bc she's good like that.  Liz made stirfry, Court made cupcakes, Hill brought stuff to make punch, I made queso, and Scot M'Bot brought dips and chips.  MMM....way for potluck dinner! It was so good.  We talked shit about people...bc scottie is a whore :)

After we ate we went to sweets for a bit where I saw some of my old church friends...awkward, but it was nice to see them.

Then we went to the top of bed, bath and beyond and sang our little hearts out looking over College Station.  I've decided that is one of my favorite spots in town.  Some people from the parking lot below us yelled at us and it was cool. We took pictures of ourselves looking out to the city and stuff...so much fun.

Then we went back to my house and watched Mean Girls.  I <3 that movie.  Killian, BJ, and Ryan came over about half way through and watched it with us.  Then everyone left.

I had a great night.  I wish Monica and Callie could have been there, but we still had a great time.  I haven't laughed that hard in a while.  :)

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My stupid internet isn't working at home.  I need to call Cox and make them fix it...I'm mad.  I want my freakin internet!  Plus my computer just sucks and my speakers aren't working so I can't listen to the awesome cd's I got from courtney!  Stupid computers.  Oh, but i love them :)  Maybe daddy can fix it.  He can fix anything.  hehe

I'm babysitting my brother's kids today.  Yay for making money.  Not sure what time though...he's supposed to call me.  I'm also supposed to hang out with Sarah today!!!  Oh, it's been so long!  I heart the sarah!

Ok, done for now!

*today was a bad day.  it's been a bad week.

*i need to cry...it's been a while and i need to let this out.

*i feel bad...i didn't mean to get mad at her, but i am.  she doesn't get that i've had a horrible week and all i want is for my girls to be together in my new house and have a good time and forget about it not being okay.  thats all i want.  and she doesnt get it.  some people can't come for REAL reasons...hers is purely for her own agenda.  it makes me sad.  i need her right now, and she doesn't look past boys to see that i'm upset.

*this week i've been doing what i did over christmas break...filling every waking moment with friends or any other thing to keep my attention off the fact that things aren't completely okay.

*yeah so to make things better a bitchy customer just called yelling at me for something i didn't do.  it's not my fault that someone wasn't here when she was and i dont want to be yelled at.  i hate customers.  it was all i could do to not scream at her...i hate having to be the nice person at work.

*I miss my Monicuss :(

*I really need someone to talk to right now...

my senior pictures are tomorrow.  i'm going shopping after i get off work to find something to wear.  and maybe i'll get a few extra things just for the fun of it.  i'm also going to the grocery store because i'm SICK of not having food in this new house.

i talked to laura today at lunch.  i decided it would be stupid to just walk right past her and pretend she didnt exist.  i dont HATE her...gah, i dunno...its just hard to stay friends with her...bc of those dumb reasons.  oh well...i'll live.  so will she.  hi laura. :)

i have so many plans for this weekend and not enough days.  so many people i need to hang out with.  sarah and i are supposed to hang out :) :)  its been so long since i've seen her outside of school...and i dont see her much at school.  i think the last time we hung out was at the beginning of the summer.  crazy.  i miss my sarah phinneyness <3

i dont, however, miss the rest of those people i used to be friends with.  but i dont resent them.  i dont hate them.  i'm not holding a grudge.  it's happy.  they dont even cross my thoughts and i like it that way.  yay for new friends and new beginnings.

i heart monica :)  just a random thought...hehe

calculus is getting hard and i dont like it.

the first six weeks is already over.  thats crazy.  its going by so quickly...i wish it would go even faster though.  i'm ready to be done with this thing called highschool.  but i'm sure i'll miss it too.  i <3 being a senior.

hi christopher!! :D

I can't beleived she dropped out of school.  ha!  that makes me laugh...way to run from your problems.  how dumb.  her problems aren't even bad.  grow up!

thats all for today. :)

oh oh!  and!  liz is so the coolest thing i know!

hey kids. i'm in Communication Graphics.  haven't updated in a while...sad.  the new condo is pretty cool.  I like it...it's just weird.  I miss my computer though.  It'll be all set up in a couple days, says the mother.  just wanted to let everyone know i'm alive.  i'll post more later at work probably.  later kids!  much love!

we're moving today.  daddy just told me.

i walked in the house last night when we got home from the game and it was so empty.  mom and dad took tons of stuff to montgomery.  they're room is completely empty, the dining room, breakfast room, living room...its all empty.  we were supposed to START moving tomorrow but not sleep there until next week.  i've spent my last night in the house i've lived in for the past 5 years.

i'm going to miss it.  i feel stupid bc i'm so attached to a stupid house, but i grew up there. i've moved so many times, but i spent all of eighth grade and highschool in that house.  i've changed friends a billion times, had my first SERIOUS boyfriend, gotten busted by the cops when my parents were out of town, spent summers swimming and baking cookies, spent christmas's with the family, spent my first thanksgiving without momo...so many things happened in that house.  i've learned and grown up so much since i first moved into it in eighth grade.

i thought erin was going to cry last night when she realized it was the last time she'd be there.  she said she had missed it so much...and now she wont ever be able to go back.  i'm going to miss that place so much.  the feel of it, the comfort of it...it's home.  it will always be the place that i grew from an immature girl to a young woman.

i will miss paint trail.

today erin, celisse and i went to the away game in georgetown.  we had a GREAT time.  we drove down there and i filled them in on all the gossip that i knew...quite humorous.  we went to carly's dorm and ate with her at subway, and went to the game.  we won 27 to 2 or something like that.  good game.  our butt's went numb.  that was interesting.  :)

the ride home was the best part.  we listened to good rap music and danced and then popped in a cd that i made when we were all best friends.  every song tugged at our hearts.  we had associated every song on that cd with some memory of the three of us.  we realized on that drive home that in junior high, our world was so small and perfect.  we had our friends, we had school, and as long as that was good...life was good.  we had the occasional fight...lots of them, actually, but god, we loved each other SO much.  those two girls were my life for four years.  they made junior high worth being there.  they made life worth living.  our boys were the best.  we had pizza eating parties at emily's, parties for every holiday at my house, shaving cream fights, water balloon fights, pacts of a friendship to last a lifetime.  we thought that we could be together forever.

things change.  and as sad as it is to lose the innocence we all shared, i'm glad things are different now.  i dont regret leaving my comfortable little circle with erin and celisse.  hard as it was, it was the right decision for me in the end.  we found our ways back to each other, all stronger, smarter, more independent people.  i have a new appreciation for everything junior high, everything erin and celisse.  wow...erin and celisse.  the phrase i muttered every friday night when mom and dad asked who i'd be with.  the people i went to the mall with, made spirit night shirts with, ate more raw cookie dough than real cookies with, swam with, watched movies with, discovered my potential with.  i am completely in debt to these two girls.

i realized tonight that it is possible to remain so close to people after years of not speaking.  it is possible to love them more than ever in just one short road trip.  i love those girls.  they will always be in my heart, no matter where i end up in life.  they helped me become who i am today.

erin and celisse: thank you.  i'll love you forever.

*my landlord was supposed to come into town today and bring me my key...he decided he's not coming until tomorrow.  stupid landlord.  i want to see my damn condo.

*the bright side though is we can start moving stuff on monday instead of next friday. that means we can do bits at a time instead of all at once.  that makes me happy.

*i'm ready to move and things to go back to normal.  mom and dad need to go to montgomery and stay there all weekend like normal.  i'm getting sick of having a curfew.  hehe

*two people are REALLY pissing me off right now.  bitches.  (no, laura, you are not one of them)

*i need to finish grendel tonight.  only 70 pages left.  no big deal.

*i need some therapeutic foods.  i think i'll go get some after work.

today was good.  i have to make this post short bc apparently the site is going down in like 10 mins for maintenance.  after school, i went to lizzymart's to cheer her up.  we ate ben and jerry's and talked.  then we went to petco, planned out my pets, went to killi's and talked to bundy mom:), went to taco bell and got food, went to her house and ate it.  it was fun.  i heart the lizzymart :)

things are going well.  wish i could elaborate, but i'm afraid i'm going to get cut off and not be able to post.  hopefully, the site wont be down long.  if so, i'll just post on my livejournal for a bit.  www.livejournal.com/users/amycon for those of you who dont remember.

later kids!

*i named my fish rockafellar, alby and rudolfo.  they're awesome.

*moni and scottie came over and helped me pack for a few hours tonight.  we got the guest room done.  still so much more packing to do in such a short amount of time.

*i wrote my rough draft for my college essay today.  my theory: the more tears you shed while writting it, the better your grade will be.  i think i have a pretty good grade so far.

*i wrote it about my grandma. :)

*i can't wait to get my key and move into my new condo.  i'm so excited! :D

*today has been a good day. :)

*i skipped out on 6th period to go to walmart and buy a tank for my fishies, and a baseball shirt so i can make a shirt for working women's/men's wednesday.  yesss!

*it smells like rain outside.  i love that smell.

*i started grendel. i'm about 30 pages into it.  its a quick read and that makes me happy.  hopefully i'll have it done by tomorrow.

*i still need to do my college essay. it's due thursday.  i imagine i'll end up doing it tomorrow night.  at least i don't have to work so i'll have plenty of time...to procrastinate.

*i heart.

*i get the key to my condo in TWO DAYS!  i'm excited :)

*i'm in love!  *sigh*

*i love having a wall of windows at work.  i get to watch things outside.  right now the wind is blowing like crazy and the poor little trees are holding on for dear life...but the sun is still shining.  remind anyone else of life?  i love it.

*quick note of not so happy thoughts: i'm sick of people that think the world revolves around them...i'm done now.

*VOTE FOR SCOTTIE FOR HOMECOMING QUEEN!!!!  She's SO going to make it! :) :)

*ok, back to grendel.  much love!

today was good!

*YL started tonight!  Oh I'm excited!  I missed it so much.  It was weird without Chris there, but it was different and it was great.  All things must change, I guess.  Ryan has talked me into going to camp next summer.  We'll see how that works out.

*I got four goldfish!  They had them at YL.  They're in a big glass bowl in my room right now.  I need to buy a tank and some food tomorrow.

*I got a condo!  It's MINE!  ALL MINE!  I move in on the 24th.  Some of the girlies are coming over tomorrow to help pack and stuff.  yessss!

*Halloween is going to be awesome...i've decided.

*Friday is going to be awesome too.  Road trip with Erin and Celisse.  HECK YES!

*I heart Jason Mraz, My Chemical Romance and Taking Back Sunday.  They are my obsessions for now. :)

*I spent a good hour and a half with Killi after YL.  I showed him my new house and we hung out at his house for a bit.  It's been a while since we had a good heart to heart and it was great.  I love that kid!  He's come a long way, and I'm VERY proud of him. :)  It's amazing how insightful he can be.

*It's bedtime for me.  Goodnight, Loves! <3333

*i'm really happy right now...dont know why.

*i went condo-looking with the parents today.  i found a location i want...just have to pick which condo and go look and stuff.

*my room is almost completely packed. it's weird.  but kind of exciting.

*monica and i have been planning...drawing ideas for decoration.  its gonna be so cool!  we're gonna have a mirror hanging in the living room!

*i might have a wall of mirrors in my new condo.  thats' hot ;)  tehe

*today monica brought me a sonic wacky pack.  she's the best ever!

*i heart caitlin and preston...lots and lots!  they're pretty ;)  oh, and they rock

*you rock too :)  but not as much as caitlin and preston. take that!

*goodbye!

today was a good day.  went to work, went to monica's senior pictures bc i'm awesome like that :), monica came over, i fell asleep, she fell asleep.  we're old and it's okay. :)

she helped me pack up some stuff.  my fragile stuff, the video closet, all my movies...we didn't get tons done, but we made progress.  her being here made it easier on me.  it's hitting me that we're packing up my things to go and live in OUR house.  this will be the place monica and i live.  for now, my parents will live there part of the time, but they're gone all the time and i know they'll be gone a lot more because my dad hates the city.  and i'll be right down the street from monica's house...so she'll be there lots.  i'm excited.  but i'm scared.  i don't WANT childhood to end.  "it's the end of an era" as caitlin puts it.  i have to grow up now.  that scares me to death.

luke (my other brother that nobody knows about) called me today.  it was a pleasant little surprise.  we hardly ever speak bc he's eight years older than me and has his own little family.  so we don't really have lots to say to each other.  but we actually talked for a good five minutes, and for me and luke, thats a long freaking conversation.  he's worried about me, i think.  he didnt say that...but luke has a different way of showing his emotions than most people.  the way we show our love is by making fun of each other.  no hugs, no "i love you's", we aren't close and affectionate but we love each other.  he wanted to make sure i got a place in a good location.  he told me to be careful when picking a place to live bc there are lots of bad places, ect.  its cute that he cares :)  i love my brother...lots and lots.

today was just such a laid back day.  it was great...and greatly needed.  i'm happy with live...despite it all, all my stress, my grief, my periodic loneliness...i'm in love with life and all it has to offer.  the good outweighs the bad.  *sigh* :)   oh i'm in love

SCOTTIE FOR HOMECOMING QUEEN 2004!!!!!!

Vote for the scottiness!  Or die!

went to the funeral today...i hate funerals.  i was so proud of scottie.  she did a great job.  i dont know how she held it together.  there were so many people there.  i didn't know scottie's dad, but i can tell he was a great man...so many people that loved him were there.

i think i got killian's stomach virus.  i was throwing up all of last night.  thankfully i felt okay enough to go to the funeral today.  but i had to go sit down after like 30 minutes of standing in the back...my stomach couldn't handle it.  hopefully i'll be feeling better before tomorrow.  i want to feel alright in montgomery and be able to eat what my daddy makes.  mom says he's been planning since he found out we were coming.  of course monica can't go anymore...so that kinda ruins some things but whatever.  i was a lot of pissed when i found out she couldn't go.

oh well...there are more important things going on right now.

<3 in memory of everyone we've loved and lost

blue comforts me when i cry.  he sits at my feet and meows until i pick him up.  then he sits in my lap and licks me until i stop crying.  if i get up, he follows me...like he's making sure that i'm okay.

animals understand pain

wow...there has been SO much drama lately.  it's crazy.  it's like designated drama week or something.  thank god i'm not involved in any of it.  i guess in directly i am, but it really doesnt have much to do with me.  it's all just trivial...and everything that is happening is because of a bunch of misunderstandings.  i have to laugh at it.

i talked to chris today.  and yesterday.  and he sent me a text.  i miss him.  lots.  i didn't think i would miss him that much when he left, but after talking to him, i really do.  i can't wait for him to come back in december so i can see him.

justin and shaini are riding with me and monica to montgomery. i'm excited.  good quality sibling and guests time. :)

oh so guess what...nobody can tell me that i'm in love with him anymore.  know why?  because i'm not!  i never was...but i mean, now its just like...there's nothing there and my love for him has changed.  it's different now.  i think i love him more than ever...but in such a different way than ever before.  this love is healthier, and i like it this way.

can i trade the sunrise for a sunset?

there are few things more beautiful than a rising or setting sun.  such a beautiful transition of life.  in a matter of 30 minutes...the world around us changes completely.  what a beautiful sign and promise of hope and the ability to start over.  its such an awesome feeling to know that we can start over, isnt it?  we get so many chances..another chance every day.  if we mess up, its okay, tomorrow is a new day.  everything can be fixed, people can forgive and forget.  you can take your life in any direction you wish to take it...at any moment.  what an awesome thing.

i love life right now.  i really do.  so much drama, so much trivial crap, so many things that just dont matter..but i love life.   i may not seem like it all the time.  to some of you i may actually seem depressed.  but dont read to deeply into those things, my friends.  i'm fine.  life is fine.  i love it.