today at work i sang and danced around in the office.  i rule the world!:)

my job is better than yours! :P

ah man.  third day of school.  we're getting into it now.  the routines are starting.  at least i take different ways to different classes to livin things up a bit.  i get to see more people that way.  i really miss seeing certain people.  like my benji. :(  i've seen him in the halls and stuff and screamed his name and hugged and such...thats all.  i miss him.  i miss my chemistry class...as strange as that seems.  i miss luke, jacob, ryan, ben, matt.  things have changed since last year.  oh well, that's the way it is every year.  i really like my english class.  i sit with sarah, brooke (eh?), and john rogers.  we laugh a lot...and our teacher doesnt care.  we do a lot of nothing and i like that :)

so far this year seems to be going nicely...we'll see how things progress.  i have a lot of do-nothing-classes, and that makes me smile :)

eh thats all for now.  i have homework to do.  yeah, i know...ew...

yeah so...first day back wasn't really as bad as i thought it would be.  daddy made me blueberry scones for breakfast :)  he's the best at that.  didn't have first.  my classes weren't all that bad...except for communication graphics.  my teacher is SO boring.  but i have seventh off too, so the day really flies by.  it's happy :)

now i'm at work.  i work til 6 and then preston and i are working on senior overalls...every day this week.  but friday i'm taking hilly a happy meal while she babysits so if we're working on them then we're gonna have to cut it a little short...hillary comes before overalls :)  hehe

my mom freaked out about it being my last first day of school...she took pictures.  wow.  she took one of me putting on my makeup and one of me getting in the car.  she's insane.  i laughed at her a lot.  hehe.

thats all.  i'm done for today :)

a semi short post!  good for me!

this is how i feel with senior year coming up...

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But, when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
Make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
Make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Break away
Break away

sooo...i've been working on my senior overalls for a couple days.  what a pain in the butt.  but they're gonna be pretty and that's all that matters.  i'm making preston's too.  i'm supposedly "helping" him, but i'm really just making them while he sits and says "oh i like that!"  crazy kid. :)  mine are cute...they have care bears and pretty pink things.  there will also be strawberry shortcake and pocahontas.  i think we're going shopping for more stuff tomorrow after i get off work.

tonight is the big dinner par-tay! :)  well not so much big...but its still exciting!  i'm cooking EVERYTHING... except dessert...i bought that bc i'm lazy.  i'm wearing a pretty skirt and stuff.  there will be candles and pretty dishes and all those wonderful things.  i'm mucho excited about this!

i woke up at like 9:30 this morning.  perhaps because i went to bed at like 10:30 last night. i'm so old.  i'm trying to get back into a descent sleep schedule.  oh the days when i would stay out until 4 in the morning...those days are gone for now.  what a sad, sad thing.  ah well.  they will return next summer.  and i will cherish them.  what the hell am i saying?  i think i have WAY too much spare time on my hands.

and with that...i am going to watch some soaps...at work.  i win!

I broke my toe. :(

it hurts.

computer guy is coming to fix the computer today.  that's exciting.  especially because soon this computer will be MINE.  muahahaha.....what?

i feel like doing something but i dont feel like talking to any of my friends today.  blah.

i think i'll have a "me night" tonight after work.

pth.

cool things:

*justin came into town this weekend.  i spent some of saturday night and all of today with him.

*we went to montgomery today to see my parents

*mom and dad took us to hyden's...best friend shrimp i've ever had.

*we had a sex and the city party saturday.  we got all prettied up, at posh foods, drank posh drinks, and watched most of the first season.

*we're going to continue doing this until we watch all of the seasons

*next weekend we're having a dinner party at my house. :)

*i make the best chocolate covered strawberries ever...next to rocky mountain chocolate factory

*my brother is awesome.  he makes me calm and rational and gives me a new perspective on life every time i talk to him.  he's the best.

*preston and i are making senior overalls this week. :D

*dad is trying to convince mom to let me have the cats when i move out :) :)

not so cool things:

* i'm kind of sick-ish.  that's not so exciting.

*school starts next week.

oh well :)  there are lots more cool things than not so cool things.  i win!

there have been a lot of people/things/reminders from my past recently.

i've seen a lot of people that were friends with my brother.  i saw travis...that was odd.  haven't seen him in probably a year or two.  talked to celisse the other day.  haven't talked to her in a while.  tami just called me too.  haven't talked to her since school let out.  i've been hearing a lot of songs that remind me of the time period when i was best friends with erin and celisse...like eve 6 and crazytown and stuff like that.

i dont know why, but for some reason it gets me thinking.  i guess because i'm so close to having this part of my life done with.  i've been doing a lot of reminiscing and contemplating who and am now and who i was then.  i've grown up a lot in three years.  amazing how things change from the end of junior high to the end of highschool.  in junior high you're certain you're going to be friends with the same people for the rest of your life.  that changes pretty quickly once you hit highschool.

so many things change.  in junior high i hated the idea of change.  i didn't want anything to ruin the comfortable little world i had built around myself.  i had erin and celisse and andrew and the exit and thats all i needed in life, right?  things change.  i'm glad they do.  those were great times, and i was really close with quite a few great people, but change is necesarry for growth, and growth is a beautiful thing when you really think about it.

i guess this is the way i need to look at the next year.  things are going to change some more.  i realize that.  that's why i've been so scared.  i've gotten used to change over the last three years, but what comes after highschool is a totally different kind of change and a different kind of growing.  but i guess i need to just enjoy the year i have left and embrace all the memories i've made in this place we call highschool.  as much as most of us say we hate it, we've spent a lot of our growing up inside those walls.  i mean just think back to when we were freshman walking into that (what we thought then was) huge building with all those people and being so excited and nervous to be starting the next four years of our lives.  and we were so scared because we had heard horrible stories about what seniors do to freshman. of course most of it was just to scare us, but still, it was a nerve shattering experience. :)  now we're those seniors that do horrible things to the freshman.  we're going to be the oldest ones there, the big men on campus, whatever you wanna call it.  it's been three years since we started out.  the people i'm friends with have totally changed.  my outlook on life is completely different.  my idea of what makes a person great was totally skewed back then.  everything is different.  and although ignorange may be bliss, i'm much happier now than i was back then being an ignorant little 14 year old.

life changes.  people change.  i change.  it's life.  it's awesome.  i'm going to miss everyone and everything about highschool so much when i leave.  it's going to be such a bittersweet graduation.  but man, can you imagine how awesome its going to be when we're done and in college?  four more years to grow and learn and figure out who we are before we hit the REAL real world.

scary...but oh so exciting

soooo...i'm pretty sure god is working on answering my prayers.  i don't normally say stuff like this, i know.  but i've been doing a lot of thinking and praying about whether or not to go back to church and where i should go and stuff.  so today a guy comes in to work and while i'm doing his lease we're talking about my last year of highschool, what i'm going to do after highschool, different things i want to do with my life...this guy was just real nice and i felt comfortable talking to him about stuff for some reason.  so he asks me if i go to church.  i lied and said i still went to hillcrest.  he said the reason he asked was bc he goes to living hope baptist and said he thought i'd like the youth group.  normally i'd be like, omg leave me alone and stop trying to witness to me. but for some reason i didn't feel that way with this guy.  i told him that i actually had been looking for a new church and he gave me his card and told me a little bit about living hope.  so i really think god sent this guy to me today.  maybe i'll try living hope.  it's baptist so i don't really know if i'll like it or not, but i guess it'll get me started in finding a new place to go to church.  i need to talk to justin about this and see what he thinks.

pretty cool :)  i liked today.

tonight i'm going to pryor's icecream thing with ryan.  i didn't really wanna go, but ryan says i am, so whatever. hehe.  it'll be good to see pryor.

Standing in the spotlight
On such a perfect night
Knowing that you're out there listening

I remember one time
When I was so afraid
And didn't think I had the courage
To stand upon this stage

Then you reached into my heart
And you found the melody
And if there ever was somebody
Who made me believe in me
It was you

It was your song that made me sing
And it was your voice that gave me wings
And it was your light that shined guiding my heart to find
This place where I belong
It was your song

Every night I pray before the music starts to play
That I'll do my best and I won't let you down
And for all the times I've stood here
This feeling feels brand new
And anytime I doubt myself I think of you

It was your song that made me sing
And it was your voice that gave me wings
And it was your light that shined guiding my heart to find
This place where I belong
It was your song


Dreams can come true
With God's great angels like you

It was your song that made me sing
And it was your voice that gave me wings
And it was your light that shined guiding my heart to find
This place where I belong
It was your song


It was your song
It's always been your song

"And it's like
Every time I turn around
I fall in love and find my heart face down."

here's my schedule:

1. off period

2. art 1--maxwell

3. eng IV AP--patek

4. us govt--slovak

5. ap calc--selcer

6. communication graphics--klein

7. off period

Haven't posted in a few days.  The computer has been screwed up.  It's getting fixed today.  Woot for that.

I picked up my schedule yesterday.  Soooo not excited.  I don't want to go back to school.  So hard to believe my summer is over.

*sigh*

This week three people have told me I'm in love with the same person.  That's not very encouraging.  I'm NOT in love.

I need to get paid.  I still have shopping to do, and I have to pay my mom back for my hair.  I got it professionally dyed so that it wouldn't look like shit anymore.  Got it cut too.  It's really dark and I like it a lot.  I have yet to buy a bag for school, and I still need to buy some shirts.  And I need to go to Hobby Lobby and buy stuff to MAKE a shirt.  Can't decide what I'm going to make yet though.  I know it's going to be a band...just don't know which one.  Probably Something Corporate.  I heart :)

As much as I don't want to go back to school, I'm ready for things to become a little more routine.  Mostly for work purposes.  When school starts I have a set schedule of when I work instead of just random days throughout the week.  That'll be nice.

pth...i dont wanna